Failure To

Keep.

Can I keep you? For how long, I don't know. For how much, I cannot say. All I know is I want to be with you, so I can find out how long and how much I'll want you for.

Our google calendar is a mess, we don't have entries after September. :( I wonder how long this blog will last? We're like choosing our technology flavour of the month. Haha, wanna make a tumblr? I love you.

We look so tired. Boo!

Your,

Tata

Daily Blogging Failure

Love, I've missed the last few days of blogging! Boooo. Anyway, I'm glad we got to chat today ang play that game in OMGPOP. I miss you love, let's go out when I get back. Let's go walking up a mountain or something. :)

Love you, see you soon. :*

Day 16

Today, we celebrated our lola's 80th birthday! Yay! We went to mass in the morning, which, to my surprise, was only attended by our family. I found out that it was a special mass, because the daily masses were usually held at 5am (WTF?!). I did the first reading and responsorial psalm, so I got to sit in the very front row. Woo. I've always wanted to sit there ever since I was a kid. :p

We ate lots of food afterwards and visited an aviary. It was such a fun day with our relatives. :)

I hope you're having fun with your grandparents as well.

Love you!

Day 15

Today, I had lunch with two of my elementary friends. You can see the photo on Facebook! I really wish you could meet them and get to know them. And hopefully I could meet some of your old friends too. We could learn a lot about each other from them. It would help with our relationship. :)

Am I being too serious love? What do you think? :p

FT

Why hello there stranger,

How are you? Are you feeling much better adjusted in the land of suman and pancit? :{ Growing a mustache aye? Joke, I don't really know. Haven't seen you in ages and I've been really slacking off in my facebook stalking duties. Rawr.

I've missed you a lot. My laptop nightmare has driven me to an absolute wave of insanity. I cried talking to a call center agent who claims they're in Australia when obviously they are not. :| Frustration overload. As each grueling moments passes, I honestly wished you were here to save me.

On the other hand, your absence sort of let me see myself better. I'm stuck in a rut and I know it. When you were here, I used you as an excuse to put things off, but now that you're not here anymore, I've realized that those days are over. I still have time and I suppose I'm going to use that time to actually get my act together. I miss you, I really do, I don't want to, but I do. :( I'm not sure if it's a bad thing or not, but not talking to you somehow lessens the miserable feeling of missing you. It's so weird. Maybe not talking makes me forget to miss you, even for a while.

I wanted to break it off with you because I knew that missing you would just be terrible, and then when you left, I made it even worse by clinging on to you in a way I wasn't supposed to. I'm not going to do that anymore love. I don't want you to worry about me anymore. Just have fun there, don't get more credit for me. You'll be there for only a couple more weeks, it's best you spend it on the things that will make you happy there. I've topped up more this week than I can count and it's ridiculous. I thought minutes spent talking to you would actually help me feel better, but I was wrong. It only works if we both feel the same way. Now all I feel is animosity towards the situation. That's going to change because I'm really happy for you and I'm going to keep myself busy.

My grandparents are here! So that means more things to do and less missing you. I love you. I love you. I love you. :*

Despite being boyfriendless (semi), laptopless and jobless this Christmas season, self satisfaction has attacked me like they were fated to do so and this has given me inspiration (it's only a few hours old so give it some time to flourish). I'm going to be fine, you're going to be fine. I wish I could see you. I love you. Take care.

I'm still here when you come back anyway.

I hope you're happy,
Tata

P.S. I get over dramatic when I'm trying not to miss you.

Day 14

Today, we visited my grandmother's brother, who is 91 years old. He's weak, and all he does is sit all day. He can't see and hear pretty well too. We had to write some of what we were saying on a whiteboard so that he could understand us. It was pretty sad really, and I think I almost cried. He still had a sense of humor left though, because he told us that one day, we would all be like him. Haha and huhu.

We went shopping for food again. We bought lots of spanish bread! I'm soooo fat.

I miss you. :*

Day 13

I hung out with my cousins today love. I also found out that all my weekends are booked already and that it's going to be 2 weeks tomorrow. 4 weeks left love! We're getting closer and closer to seeing each other again! I miss you. I need to get more credit so I can text you, my dear Gitanna. I hope you can go online soon. :)

P.S. Eat well. You look thin. :p

Day 12

I was hoping that somehow you'd be able to go online today even if your laptop's kinda dead at the moment. But I guess not. I'll just wait love. :)

FT

I'm still money less. My easy access account is hungry for money! I should know by the 15th if I can get half of my target money at least. :)) I'll try and improve my chances on the weekend. I'll work on it really hard. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Anyway in work news, I've submitted my crappy two paged resume. I really think I should have put a little bit more effort into it, but I'm putting it off till the weekend. What's bugging me though is the fact that the "Job Application" note on my phone has been there for ages and I've only been actively searching for one this week. (And then failing to press the apply button out of my feelings of inadequacy)

On a side note: I still haven't gone to get my phone fixed. :| This has to stop. Days of excessive procrastination will forever ruin my life and my phone.

Love, I think my life may not go anywhere. It's even possible that I'm going to be the next spokesperson for failure. Would you still love me, even after that?

Ok, i should get ready soon, because I'm going to Karyn's house at around 5 or 6. Boo. I miss you love. Catch you next year. ;)

Day 11

Today, I had lunch with a different group of friends from UP. We ate at Reyes BBQ at the TechnoHub. It was okay, quite similar to Steak Escape actually. Not much happened today except that I walked around UP alone for nearly 2 hours. I'm not being emo love, don't worry. It's just that I wanted to check out the changes in UP but I didn't have anyone to walk with. Maybe someday you could walk with me?

Day 10

I didn't get to talk to you today. And you didn't tell me what was bothering you. Anyway, Angelo and I went to SM North and Trinoma today. We also watched Skyline (not worth the money!) and walked around because we wanted to see how big SM North really is. It's kind of difficult to take in its hugeness, because it's divided into three. Although you could say that each of those three could pass as a mall by themselves. And oh, while we were walking outside SM North, somebody grabbed my shoulder which really surprised me. When I turned around there was a girl and a guy behind me. I had my "WTF?!" face on until she said that she was Tiff! Hahaha. Wow. Talk about a random encounter. And I just had a haircut! That was funny, weird, random and awesome all at the same time! Oh my dear Tata, I wonder what you're up to? You're not telling me much love. Hope we can talk soon! Love you!

FT

Step one of project $200 has been started! An expected income of $95 is listed. Wish me luck! :)

Day 9

Today, I just sat in front of the computer. The whole day! I didn't really notice because I was busy chatting with you! Time flies when you're talking with the one you love. ;) The only time I went outside the house today was to buy some bread. I bought some spanish bread, kalihim and some crinkles. For the record, my crinkles are way better. Hahahaha. I think I'm going to try and learn how to make spanish bread before I come back. They're so yummy!

Day 8

Hi love, today I got to talk to you again! It's becoming a habit isn't it? We talked about some stuff that left me wanting you more. Oh dear love, stop making me want you more. I might not be able to control myself. :p

Today, I got to meet your Tito Das. He's a really cool guy, I understand why he's your favorite. I think he's a very happy person, because he's always smiling. He told me lots of stuff about you. Ba na na naaaaa... I learned a lot about you today love, and I think I understand you more.

40 days to go. We can do this. :)

FT

Love,

KANIN Club! Did you eat the sinigang rice? The fried sinigang rice? THE RICE! I bet you don't remember, but I told you about it a long time ago.

I've been pretty lazy again, but I was able to finish my CV and then I was able to apply for a bit. I'll probably do more searching tomorrow. I've been talking with Dale and we were looking for jobs together. Haha, sort of funny though, how badly we were doing. While I'm still in the process of job hunting, I'm going to try and get me some money. I can't steal from my secret fund anymore, because I'm sure that if I go on living like this, there will be no secret fund. :(

$200 will be the goal. I should set a deadline right? Hmm, I should raise that amount by the 20th. Woot, do you think I'll be able to do it? :">

I'll keep you updated!

With all the love in the world,
Tata

Day 7

And here I thought this day would be boring and uneventful. How wrong could I get? Oh my love, the things we do. >:)

I couldn't resist your charm love. Even though we're apart, I can't say no to you. :">

I wish I was there last night, so we could be together. I wish I can just go back right now, so we don't have to be apart. I miss you even more. :*

P.S. I can't wait to get my hands on you again. ;)

Day 6

Happy 4th month my love. I tried calling you today, but I couldn't hear you clearly because someone was trying to fix a motorcycle across the road. But at least I got to hear your voice today, and at least I got to greet you. Also, I got to chat with you for a bit today too! I was actually going to take a nap but then I checked the time and thought that you'd probably be online. Good thing I checked. Only 5 more weeks to go love! We can do this! Sabi ni Pin, "Nothing is impossible basta true love". Do you think our love is true? I do. :">

Day 5

Today, I had lunch with my blockmates and some other friends that were close to our block. We ate at LaMesa Grill at Trinoma. The food was okay, but the servings were a bit small. I still ate a lot though. After that we were supposed to watch HP7, but the schedule we saw on ClickTheCity was wrong so some of us didn't watch because they had to leave. I've been saying this a lot, but it's true, everybody has asked me about you. They want to meet you, to get to know you. I'm hoping one day you get to meet them. All of them. I also got a haircut in a Bench Fix salon. And for the record, I hate SM North. Too many people AND more importantly, not enough signs for restrooms. I was on the 3rd floor and had to go down to the first floor because it was the only clearly marked restroom. GOSH. Hahaha.

Day 4

I think this day was the most expensive one in my life. Hahaha. I ate so much! Today I got to meet most of my friends' girlfriends. Will I ever get the chance to introduce you to them as well? Because it was really fun meeting them, and I think it would be nice if you got to know my friends too. It was really great being with my friends again, it felt like I belonged but then again, I kind of felt alone, because they had someone to hold hands with, someone to hug. I missed you a bit more. Anyway, I think you're going to win our little contest! For lunch, I went to the Beach House in UP, then to House of Sisig. For snacks, we went to Coffee Bean in Ayala TechnoHub. We stayed there for almost 5 hours! After that, we went to Kanin Club for dinner! My stomach is soooo big! Is yours too? Are you eating a lot? I love you!

FT

Hello December 3! It's 12 AM here. I was hoping to catch you pero I'm so sleepy, I'll sleep na. I really want to hear your voice. :(

In Karyn's words "I'm whipped."

I love you.

Day 3

I woke up at 5:30am PHT because we were going to hitch a ride with our uncle to QC. Wow. It was soooo early. And my gosh, the traffic! It was so slow. Ouch. We also went to Trinoma and watched "The Next 3 Days". It was a tiring day love. I'm looking forward to the next time I get to talk to you. I hope you're doing well. :)

Day 2

I didn't do much today. But, I found my old guitar. It's 6 years old and hasn't been played for 3 years. I think I'll clean it up and change the strings and see how it goes. I went to my cousin's place and got to talk to you for around 3 hours! Yay! I'm sorry that my mic wasn't working, but I'll see what I can do. Did I tell you that you're so cute? Because you are! I miss you!

Day 1

Woah, jetlag much? I woke up after only 2 hours of sleep. The sound of the tricycles and some weird dance songs playing in the plaza woke me up. Today was a food day. I ate bibingka, suman, sinigang, okoy and maybe more. We went to the grocery as well. Shocking prices, I tell you. I bought new slippers as well! Woohoo. We also got our luggage back! Yey! I'm pretty tired. I've also started to text my friends so that we can meet up. Kinda excited. I hope I get to talk to you tomorrow when I go online. I miss you. I'm staying in a big, dark and lonely room but I've got lots of space for you on my bed. Tabi tayo?

Day 0 - Philippines

Flight day. Plane left at around 1:30pm NZT and was set to arrive in Brunei at around 11pm NZT. The food provided on the plane was surprisingly okay, but that didn't take away the pain my butt was feeling just sitting for around 9 hours. I tried texting you when we got to Brunei but Vodafone didn't have coverage so we had to buy stuff from Coffee Bean to get the key for their WiFi so we could all say that we were in Brunei already. After almost 3 hours playing Pusoy Dos, we finally got to board our plane home. We couldn't get over the hot and humid temperature once we got down. We headed over to the baggage claim area only to find out that they LEFT OUR BAGS IN BRUNEI. Maybe a third of us passengers were affected, Angelo and Pin included. We arrived at around 4:30am NZT but we got out of the airport at around 6:40am NZT. I found it difficult to breathe at first. Funny, that's what I was complaining about NZ when we first came here as well. We went to Jollibee and were pretty shocked by the prices. 1pc Burger Steak is now P55 and 2pc is now P75. Only about a P15 increase since the last time I got one. But the most shocking price was that the 2pc Chickenjoy, which used to be around P85, is now P130! WHAT. THE. HECK. ANG MAHAL. We got home at around 8am NZT and I slept at around 8:30am NZT.

Freely Talk

Talk to me. Communication is key. I've told you before, if you have something to say, say it to me. I'm not a mind reader. I'm not that good at reading people. If I've done something wrong, tell me. Please? I want to be a better boyfriend. I want to make you happy. I want US to be happy. I think I've said that plenty of times already. Don't keep things to yourself. Tell me, and we'll find a way to make things work.

I like you. I NEED YOU. I LOVE YOU.

Finding Trouble

Dear Tonio,

I wish I wrote more last month. Looking back, it seems that motivation has slowly left me ever since I showed it to you. Perhaps in the beginning I was more engaged in writing because I wanted to make you remember instead of my ideal reason of me being able to remember. But now, all I want is to remember and the words I wanted to see weren't written.

I guess I want reassurance and words in this blog would reassure me of us. The existence of us and that the longevity of our relationship wouldn't be measured. Do you think as our relationship grows older, we've changed? Sometimes I wish you would answer my questions. So I know that you actually read the posts. I know you read them, but I don't know when you read them and whether the feelings I have on these blog posts is still the same when you do get the time to do so. I'm not saying check this everyday, because to be honest I don't check everyday, but knowing that you know this and everything I type is potentially information you'd be getting, I'm consciously writing for you.

I don't even know why I did this, our relationship is not very complicated. I'm not sure if we're the couple who's going with the flow or we're the couple who's really serious about the whole relationship thing. I'm a bit concerned about our future, whatever it may be. I'm not expecting anything, but I don't want to start thinking about things.

Despite all of my buts and drama, I really want something simple. Loving you could be very simple. However, my nature seems to be causing all the complications we have. I mean look at me, I'm writing recklessly without knowing where this is going. I'm demanding and full of drama. I made a blog to pseudo document our relationship, I have this feeling it's bordering creepy.

I could just email you everything. I could make it easier for the both of us. You could reply in an email, but perhaps it's not the conversation I'm after. It's actually the things I couldn't tell you. The way I see what's happening to us while we try and grow as a couple.

For all I know, October could've been the best month of our relationship. I should write more. Maybe then this blog can be useful. Do you really feel my love?

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I love you.

Familiar Treats

Dear love,

I'm the crazy girl who's still up doing nothing productive when I'm supposed to be doing something really important or maybe sleeping because we might be going to church really early and lack of sleep isn't very good and that might be a bad way to start my day.

That was the worst running sentence I've ever made. Without commas and all those jazzy punctuations too! Phew!

So love, it has been more than half a month since my last post. Talk about procrastination! Sheesh! Let me tell you something about October. It's a very hectic month. Everything is due on October, oh dameet! :}

If I can pull back some memories, October 1 was a Friday. I didn't pull that from my memory though, I got that from the calendar. Ok, ok, let me think October 1 was a Friday. Hmm... Oh, it was the week where I was sort of out of it. I didn't go to uni that day. I was really just sulking away at home. I didn't see you though, which meant I didn't see you for the following three days. :(

Saturday was the burial and then Sunday was just staying at home. When I came to uni on Monday, Andrea and I had this huge emotional session instead of going to our Marketing lecture. I remember I was pretty broke that day. :)) Broke and emotionally drained because of our talk. Hahahaha.

Anyway, Tuesday was our 2nd month. :"> We went to Mt. Eden. Haha, subway and more.

Moving on, the next few days were spent working on different projects? And staying at home to take care of Vincent. The first few weeks of October have been really hectic. Let's see, Thursday the 7th we went home together, you were a bit sick though. :(

Mondays are becoming boo days, I never get to see you on a Monday. :(

Tuesday, instead of going early to uni, I met up with you instead. Haha, you were rushing me the whole day! I was late for class. ARGH. :))

Now the next day, I was feeling so bad I had to stay home. Gosh love you made me sick. :O

Thursday, I had my last lecture with Koro, I was feeling really sick and then this was the day I didn't see you at all. Oh dear, bad vibes.

And then October 15, which was last Friday, we stayed in the city until 10:30. Haha, we were supposed to leave at 9:30 but we ended up leaving an hour later because you wanted to be with me for much longer. HAHAHAHA, come on, don't deny it.

I got distracted writing this by watching old Rico Yan videos. Haha, anyway I love you BABY!

:)

Mwah!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I can't wait to see you love.

FT Texts

Love,

This is just proof that texting makes you fall asleep. Which is good in a way because you get your rest. :p

I hope you're okay. I really wanted to see you today. I'll be seeing you on Tuesday though. :)

Yours,
Love

P.S. Looking forward to the next kidnapping. ;) Do you want some Chocolate Syrup? :)

Finish Today

Recapping everything that happened last September. You fool! Such a procrastinator.

Dear Toh-nee-oh,

Last September was the second month of our relationship. *GASP* And it was so poorly documented that here is my attempt at letting us remember all the ups and downs of the month.

September 1, Wednesday, this was interesting, do you remember? We stayed at home. :) Pistachio ice cream FTW.

September 2, Thursday, no Thursdate. Hahaha, Sad.

September 3, Movie? Train? Your house. Hahaha!

September 4 & September 5, Weekends without you. :( But then the fifth was our monthsary! Happy! :">

September 6, Monday, Morning date ++;

September 7, Tuesday, No you and me, together. :(

September 8, Wednesday, Bbq! Good friends, good food, waiting for everyone to come. Going in and out! Madness!

September 9, Thursday, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Do you remember love?

September 10, Friday, Love your possums, your DEAD possums, they just don't exist ok?

September 11 & September 12, torture weekends, doing OPS? MKTG? Some sort of assignment.

September 13, Monday, First day of uni. No uni for you. :))

September 14, Tuesday, No class for me, no class for you too. >:))

September 15, Wednesday, Void, what happened? :|

September 16, Thursday, Drama! >:D<

September 17, Friday, Did we have our first fight yesterday? Was it a fight?

September 18 & September 19, First weekend together in the month! :">

Note: Our calendar is empty! Boo! How am I supposed to finish this?

September 20, Monday, No classes for you again! Oh boo!

September 21, Tuesday, I didn't go to class! RAWR, why?

September 22, Wednesday, Test in INFO. Hahahaha! Didn't study. Thank you for waiting for me. 

September 23, Thursday, I have one class, which I attended, woot for me! Then...

September 24, Friday, Acoustic night. *CLAP CLAP*

September 25 & September 26, Weekends chill.

September 27, Monday, Hulu Cat without you! :(

September 28, Tuesday, Desperately trying to finish Ops, spent the morning with you. :D Surprised you with a date. Woke you up too early? Was in your class but wasn't in mine. :))

September 29, Wednesday, Tiring day. :|

September 30, Thursday, I didn't go to uni today, I robbed you of precious hours you could've spent writing your essay. But, I was really happy you were here, with me. I love you.

Love,

Tata

P.S. I want to be with you.

Feeling Tired

Love,

I wasn't able to update this in such a long time, it makes me sad. What if I forget everything we did? How else will I remember?

:(

Yours,
Tata

For The

Love of Tata

Hello boyfriend,

I wanted to do some posts about the great weeks that passed by, but it seems like I could never find the time to do it. Funny enough, I'm doing this a couple of minutes before my test. That's weirdness for you. Haha, anyway, I'm going to try and update this this week. I was thinking of doing three seperate posts for each week and then do posts for the individual days that I really really have a lot to say about. MWAHAHAHAHA.

Love,
Tata

P.S. I love you

Forgive Tonio

Dear FT,

I'm really sorry for what just happened. Too much drama I guess. I wanted to talk to you tonight because we didn't get to spend much time together but you didn't reply so I thought you were sleeping but then I found out on Facebook that you were awake the whole time and then you replied and then drama drama drama. I'm really sorry. I'm going to try and sleep in a bit, but I don't think I'll be able to sleep well tonight. I'm not really sure if you're not annoyed at me anymore, so I guess I'll find out tomorrow.

It's alright to be annoyed. It's alright to be angry, mad or sad. It's not going to be always super happy all the time. So please, if I did something stupid, be angry at me. Tell me I was being stupid. Tell me to stop it with the drama. Don't suppress those negative feelings. I've done you wrong before, but you just brushed it aside and acted almost like nothing happened. I guess it was "okay" back then because there was no "us" yet. But now, please, if you're angry with me, please be angry with me? Let it out.

Again, I'm sorry. Oo na, makulit na. Thanks for the card, and I also read the poem. I hope things get better when/if see each other tomorrow.

Love,
FT

P.S. I lesbians you. :*

Frumpy Table

Dear Boyfriend,

Look what I found in my bag.

It's OUR eclipse that I stole from you last Thursday? Friday? When was it? :)) We're having our break right now. Thanks for the update about Karyn. Stalker! Tsk!

I hope you have fun at home. Take care.

Yours,

Tata

P.S. I lesbians you! :*

Funny Thinking

As I'm typing this, my clock says it's 3:42am. I don't have a reason why I'm still up at this weird time of night other than waiting for you to finish your essay. I have a feeling that I should be doing something, but I can't seem to remember so I'm at a loss of what to do. Look, I even drew a picture of you!

The more I think about it, the less waiting for you makes sense. It's not like I'm helping you with your essay anyway. And it's not like staying awake and waiting for you would have an impact on what you're doing. Hmmm... I don't know. I just want to stay up because you're still up. It's hard to explain really. And no, I don't do this usually.

Maybe it's because I like you. A lot. Or because I lesbian you. Oops, I meant lesbianS. Or maybe even that OTHER L WORD. :O

It's Monday! I get to see you again tomorrow. Hurray!

Yours,
Tonio

Filmed Together

I've said this before and I'll say it again, I still don't get why we take a bajillion pictures every time we're together. Maybe it's a thing for you girls. I don't know, but I'm not complaining. It's fun looking at our photos together. :)

You used to stop me whenever I was trying to take photos of the times when we were together. You used to dislike having "evidence", but look now! BOOM!

Two hands together. Yours and mine. No, wait... OURS. I was sure that there could be something once we started holding hands. And look at us now, isn't this something? :p

I want to hold your hand. Will you hold mine? I won't let go. I promise.

<3s,
Tonio

Flying Twigs

Dear Lesbians,

Our monthsary celebration last Monday was interesting. A lot of things happened that I don't even know what to write. It brought a lot of things to me and now I've come to realize a lot of things.

Last Wednesday was the BBQ. It was great hanging out with friends and being with you. It was sad that you had to leave quite early on, but its was good that I still get to be with you.

Today, we saw each other again. Being with you is simply... addicting.

Tomorrow is another day with you, how am I supposed to spend the next three days after that? Let's see what'll happen.

Write back again on the weekend!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I lesbians you. :">

"Obsession is a young man's game, and my only excuse is that I never grow old" - Michael Caine

Fantastic Tune

My dearest boyfriend,

I've been writing blogs for a long time. Each one I abandon after a couple of entries, just to start a new one after a while. The last blog I made, I left to write for you (sort of). At the start of our relationship, I wanted to write this blog to show me how our relationship progressed and to serve as a memory bank of all the things we were going to do.

I'm not very good at remembering things and this was a way to make me remember, but amusingly as I continually wrote about us, the more my feelings for you grew. It grew to a point where I'm now motivated to write it for you, so that you won't forget that were good. That what we have is good, if not great.

I decided to show you this for our first monthsary, because I wanted you to see my thoughts, feelings and random posts. I also wanted you to remember what we did and what we have. I'm also sharing this blog with you. You can write in it if you want to. :">

Happy first month! I hope we have more and more amazing months to come.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I lesbians you.

Flowing Thumps

Dear FT,

I was really happy to see you yesterday!

We met up at around 9 AM, I was getting some cash out and you surprised me from behind. We walked to the train station which is why your sick right now. :(

There weren't a lot of people on the platform that early, so I was able to hug and steal kisses from you. It was my first time to ride a train and it took us less than 2 minutes to reach Sylvia Park. :| Hoyts was still closed when we got there so we were able to look around at Whitcoulls for a bit. We browsed magazines, children's books, fiction, comics and coffee table books. We looked at the cards of course, among other things.

When were finally able to get our tickets, we had to wait around before the movie started. We took a picture in one of those photo booths. I really enjoyed that. Haha!

The movie was great and as a bonus, I enjoyed being close to you while we were watching.

Lunch at burger fuel was awesome. Next time I bet I can finish my own and you only have to help me a bit. HAHAHAHAHA... Going around Sylvia Park and meeting people, looking at shops is something I really enjoy when I'm with you (but please destroy the purple wigged picture. PLEASE!).

Going back to Panmure, mixing up the trains, buying things, walking to your house, entering your house, seeing your family and slightly talking to them was... interesting. I think it was one of the most funnily stressful things I've done. Maybe it's because I really like you or something. This is crazy. You're crazy. Being with you makes me crazy. I really like you.

I really really do. I want to be with you. All the time. I can probably live without you, but I feel like I'd be happier if I was with you. That's what you make me feel. Sometimes when the day is about to end, I anticipate us parting, because at that moment I feel the strongest urge to kiss you. To kiss you in a way that will keep me satisfied until the next time I see you.

I want to kiss you right now.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I want you.

Fun Tell

Dear FT,

Another day, another step. As each day passes, my like for you grows and grows. :">

Yesterday was interesting. As usual your visits bring about interesting things. We had popcorn, pistachio gelato, bread from bakers delight and your cassava cake. :D It was fun, eating, enjoying each other's company and lazily hanging around among other things. Thank you for coming.

It was fun going back and forth from my house to Botany. HAHAHAHA. It was so sad we missed your bus. Look at this picture I took. It has potatoes in the background.

Awesome day with you as usual. Sorry you missed your bus. I hope you had a good time.

Today was Thursday and we didn't have our Thursdate. Haha, its ok though, Wednesday made it all better and I get to see you tomorrow. Woot! You went to uni and you thought I went without telling you. HAHAHAHAHA. >:*< Of course I'd tell you!

All my depressing thoughts seem to fly out of my head when I talk to you. So always talk to me. Please. :*

I like you. A lot.

I can't wait to see you again.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you and maybe lesbian you. ;)

"If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it." - Mary Engelbreit

First Trouble

Dear Toh-neeh-oh,

I'm so excited because I get to see you in a couple of hours! :">

I couldn't wait for Monday and Tuesday to be over. Thankfully they are! So tell me, will I still feel this way when you leave me in a couple of months? :| Hopefully not, that would be terrible.

Ugh, today is a sad sad day. You were annoyed with me because I wasn't able to tell you about the BBQ. I didn't mean to! ARGH! Sad sad day indeed. >:*< I hope you still like me.

I went to Reena's today to get some work done, but we ended up procrastinating. Haha, yesterday I was busy playing Disgaea. Gosh I procrastinate way too much!

Oh well, I feel so tempted to sleep so that time would go by faster, but I have some things to do. Haha, keep me awake with your texts ok!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you (and I really really miss you)!

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder." - Proverb

Framed Perception

Last night. I wanted to be with you so much. Oh gosh. :|

Addiction!

Fortunate Toaster

Last week was great!

I wasn't able to write about all the days, but here's a couple of small snippets. So we don't forget. ;)

August 23, Monday, you weren't in uni. I was still a bit sick, but I was able to get to uni. Late for the Ops lab though. I had my Marketing test this day. The test was ok. Did you know I lost my phone this day and someone returned it. @___@

August 24, Tuesday, is a day I can't remember. Oh gosh! I'm going to ask you. >:) You replied "Nagkita tayo?" What kind of response is that? I need details! Oh wait, did I go home early? ARGH. I can't remember. FAIL. Elaborate! Ok, you remembered. This was that day when I went to meet up with you and Karyn for lunch, and then we ended up having Chinese, but then you had to go and then we went shopping! Oh yeah! Awesome! :*


August 25, Wednesday, was my Ops test. We met up in the library and we had lunch together. It was the day you discovered the Chocolate with Nuts Korean Pancake. Woot! We had Hulu Cat too.

YAY.


August 26, Thursday, was our morning thursdate and my failed card in your bag surprise. I already have a separate entry for that. Here's the link (Floating Wink).


August 27, Friday, was your test and we had dinner with friends. :} But we also spent lunch together in Westfield. I made a separate entry for that as well. :*
Here's the link (Furtive Throws)!

Woohoo. Recaps are so much fun!

I'm not sure how many times I'm going to be with you during the break. Hopefully I don't miss you too much!

-_____-

Furtive Throws

Dear FT,

It was the last day of uni yesterday. You had a test in the morning and then you finished your assignment and I was able to meet up with you at around 12. We went to HSB to look for the drop box for your paper. It took us a while to find it, as we were looking on the wrong floor. FAIL.

Speaking of fails. It took you so long to find the card! GOSH! >:D< My boyfriend is so funny.


Anyway, we took the free bus to Britomart and I was threatening to kidnap you and make you miss class. Of course I didn't do it, but still, there was a huge possibility that I would have.

We went to Westfield and we saw a glimpse of JELLOW. Haha, plus we got to see some awesome cards. It's becoming a hobby, looking at cards and taking videos of you.

Window shopping is always fun especially when its with you. :"> The kiss me and flower was so cute on you! Hihihihi. :))

After eating we went back to uni, I took you to your class. I went to meet up with Pin and Karyn and we went to the Sky Tower. Where we were able to take a lot of pictures! <3

Dinner was nice.  I was able to get a lot of the latest gossip. Momotea was ok. I finally got the pearls, the Hulu Cat slush without the pearls were a total fail. HAHAHAHA. But the best part was the time I spent with you! Walking and bus rides included.

I promise to behave from now on. You too!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you! >:*<

"We are often unprepared for the truth, which is why truth is revealed to us progressively" - Chip Brogden

Floating Wink

Dear FT,

Busy week again, but it's finally over for me. Lucky! :)

I kidnapped you this morning so you couldn't study. Sorry >.<, but I just really wanted some alone time with you. I'm so evil. I keep on distracting you!

We went down Albert park and crossed the bridge to AUT. I kissed you in the middle of the bridge in front of everybody. I bought some chocolate korean pancakes for you to eat. Mwahahaha... And then we scoured Elliot St. for other things we can eat. I ended up buying some sushi and that red bean donut. Did you like it?

We sat down near down fountain at High St. >:) I stole kisses from you! Hahaha!

To be honest the hour and a half wasn't enough for me. I wanted to spend more time with you. I was even considering missing class, but anyway, I had class and you went away and then I waited for you to come back and I snuck a card into your bag which you still haven't seen. Fail. Hopefully you spot it sometime today.

Good luck on your test Potato. >:D< Thank you for being with me!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you! :*

"You are what I never knew I always wanted." - Fools Rush In

Fanda Tables

Dear FT,

We all know we're just Panda's in the inside.

August 19 was a good day. I was feeling slightly feverish and you weren't able to finish your assignment but not everything is perfect.

Side note: I can't believe you said you were finished though. :|

I met up with you a few minutes before we went to see Pin. She gave you the bread dough. Then we made our way to Britomart. We were talking about something I can't remember. And then I mentioned popcorn. And suddenly we were lining up to buy tickets for Knight and Day.

You're so random. :* It was an ok movie, a little bit dragging at some parts, but I was happy to be with you. We did discover that the cinema seat dividers could go up and down. Woot!

We had Korean food for dinner. I think it was at that point where I realized that you're a really nice guy, because you ate everything I gave you. Totally awesome. :">

We walked down to Britomart, checked the bus time and then made our way to the docks where I tried to take advantage of you. HAHAHAHAHA. Joke!

When we were on our way home, we saw Tim. :)) You took the bus all the way to my house and you took the last bus home. >:D<

In all honesty, while you were there I didn't feel the pain.

Thank you for this awesome Thursdate.

Happy two weeks!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you more! :">

"Attraction is not a choice" - David DeAngelo

Four Tricks

Dear Fatato,


August 18, was a Wednesday. First: We were together in the morning.


A few minutes before my class we went to UBS with Karyn and I gave you another card about hugs. You're just so huggable. <3

Second: After my class I went to meet you at the quad and I had noodles (:">) and we had ice cream. I was starting to feel a little bit off that day.

You took me to my next class and was late for yours. O_____O

Third: I just realized that you waited with me until the PMI meeting started. We had curly fries with other BBIM friends. :} And the momentous moment of Tim's "I have no accent"

After the PMI meeting, I wasn't able to catch the 7:30 bus, I caught the 8:30 one.

Fourth: You met up with me in Greenlane. And you gave me a cupcake.

You're too sweet. <3

It's been a really awesome day today. I've been with you on four separate  times on the same day. It's insane. Oh gosh.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you!

Let's be stupid together? ;)

Fingers Tell

Dear FT,

My previous recap of the overall awesome week turned into a rant. Sorry! -_- This is take two.

I should meditate off all the bad vibes first. RAWR.

Bad vibes are gone. <3

August 17, was a Tuesday. It was breakfast picnic day. My darn phone decided to kill off its internal speakers on me, so I had to put you on speakers every time I called you. I remember we were talking the night before and I was trying to color the rest of the signs. I failed to finish it because you thought I was doing something important. Rats! I had to do it on the bus. :))

I was also looking at metservice every so often to check if it would rain or not. It didn't. :) I was at high street looking for dessert when you finished class. It was a good... morning.

After my class, I went to watch a movie ("sine") with Andrea and Reena. You decided to wait for me. You were supposed to do your assignment but you fell asleep. Tsk tsk.

I went back up to get my things and then we went to Britomart. Oh wait, we went to get some cake first. :) And then we waited for the bus, but we weren't able to get a seat. It's your fault! :))

HAHAHAHAHA.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you!

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous" - Ingrid Bergman

Fleeting Tsss

Dear FT,

I've been so consumed this week with a lot of things that I wasn't able to do my usual bloggities for you. So here's a couple of things I missed. It might be a long or short post, depending on what I remember.

Be prepared.

Last August 16 was a Monday. We weren't together. You were at home, I was in uni. It was a good day. I was able to attend my classes with an awesome amount of attention, but the only downside was that I wasn't able to see you. At that point, it wasn't really an issue so it was ok. I can't remember much. That's why I really should write after it happens. Argh.

I do remember something about that day though. A confession, for you. I again foolishly talked to Ag. We're not really close, we're more acquaintances than friends but I told him we were friends. I generally like people. It's not being kind, it's just how I am, I like people. With him, I really don't feel threatened nor do I feel any sort of annoyance. What I do feel for him is a sense of overwhelm-sation(That's not a word, I know). I feel overwhelmed by what he says. Perhaps he's looking for a friend, perhaps he has different intentions, it doesn't really matter to me because as far as I'm concerned, he's just another guy.

I've already placed him in an always invisible group in my FB chat anyway. Part of me was already going to do that anyway, part of me was still a bit apprehensive. The only reason why I even have an NZ friends list is because I was testing if I can send an FB message to a certain group. I really didn't want to group anyone, this is out of laziness.

In all honesty I hate the feeling of placing someone in an invisible group. It feels like I'm shutting someone out. On the other hand, maybe this is better for him, because he might have this silly notion that he'll be able to take advantage of me by getting closer. The only real thing that's bugging me about this whole thing is the amount of time you put in to make me transfer him into that list. Next time, just tell me straight out what you want me to do. Don't give me this "It's up to you" kind of response, unless you really feel that it should be up to me. Unless you're really neutral about the whole thing. To a certain extent you have a say and to a certain extent I will yield. I promise.

This blog has just turned into a one off rant. I promised you last night I would be honest. I will never mention him again. Just remember, he's just a guy.

Ok, I'm sorry.

Yours,

Tata

From Ten-Thirty

To Nine-Fifteen

You were with me.

Thank you. <3

Freedom Theory

I've been quite busy these past few days.

Last Tuesday, I went out with Andrea and Reena. And you waited for me.

Last Wednesday, I was with you in the morning, and then you waited for my class to end for lunch and ice cream, and then we you were with me in OGGB while I was waiting for the PMI meeting.

Last Thursday, we had our first date. :*

This Friday I was sick and you came to visit me. @___@ Amazing!

Will elaborate on these more tomorrow (?)

Yosh!

Frozen Turn

It was a Thursday and a Saturday.

I've noticed that as the days of our relationship grow, the closer and sweeter we become. Like fruit, we're slowly ripening up. Hopefully though, we harvest our feelings before they rot.

You sent me a text message in the morning saying:

It really made me think. I've deleted most of the messages in my phone but I've decided to keep this one, just so I can show you if it ever happens. I'm not sure what I want. Love is very complicated. Do I really want to complicate us? I just feel happy when I make you feel happy, but when is the right time to start feeling those feelings? I guess I'll only find out when it happens.

Last Thursday, I was MIA in uni because I was with you. Well partially because I was with you. I made a couple of people worry, but then it was all worth it because I got to spend time with you. Those few hours flew by so fast that I couldn't believe that we were together for that long.

Last Saturday, despite the amount of people around us, I still couldn't stop myself. I remember you were talking about gayuma, perhaps you did use it on me, because I really do like you and I can't keep myself from being with you.

Tomorrow, I'm going to try and sweep you off your feet. :*

I'm always happy when I'm with you.

Fixed Taste

Potato,

I'm getting addicted to you and I think its not healthy. :))

This was our first Saturday together and we got to sleep beside each other as a bonus. Awesome. We went to KG's surprise birthday party and I really had fun. Did you have fun? I was with you most of the time, but you got pretty sleepy early on. Did you drink a lot? I can't remember anything.

I do remember certain things though. >:) You're too much! Joke!

Oh dear mashimaro, what will happen to us? Huh?

Waking up beside you/Not really sleeping beside you is great. How will I ever sleep alone again? Haha, where are we going anyway? I really don't know. Are you scared? I'm not. I think. I really should switch my late evening blogging sessions to the morning. My head is pretty much wasted from this point and I'm starting to type random babbles.

I'll probably update this sometime tomorrow.

Till I see you again!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you. MORE.

Frisson Tales

Mashimaro,

You've just transformed into a fat white rabbit to me. Wikipedia describes him as someone who is "not above using violence to impose his will on others" RAWR!

So today was day four of courting Tonio. It was a partial success? Maybe, it depends on the result. I gave you this cute little box with chocolate hearts on the inside. I forgot to take a picture of it. I was kind of in a hurry and I wasn't able to get you a card cause you finished earlier than expected. FAIL. And then I sort of blew my cover and you saw me before you were able to open my locker. FAIL part deux.

But it seemed that you were surprised! :"> Woot. Are you going to say yes to me anytime soon? Haha, I hope so!

I got to spend a majority of the day with you. It was great. I feel clingy, I should stop. Hahahaha. <3

You rushed in the morning to get on the same bus with me. Thank you! And then you were with me after lunch. Thank you again! And then you even went home with me. Thank you so much!

You're making it impossible for me to go on a day without you, you should stop. Or not. It depends. :)

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you

"Kisses honeyed by oblivion" - George Eliot

You're so vain!

Flaming Touches

Dear FT,

HAPPY One week! :)

So this is it. We've made it to a full week. Congratulations!

Last Wednesday was day two of courting you. I opted to go for the RAWR-ing dinosaur. I wasn't able to take a picture of it though. We met up in the library and I was able to give it to you there. And then I wrote this note on a piece of paper and I forgot to color the RAWR part. :)) I colored it while you were studying. Haha, and then we did the whole thing again. Thanks for giving me another chance. >:D<

I was with you for lunch, as well as dinner! Wow, it's been great being with you.

And then today I gave you a card. FAIL. Hahaha, you got here before I could write on it. YOUUUU! :* Today was really interesting. I never knew time could fly by so fast. You were amazing. :)

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you!

P.P.S. >:*< and more!

Following Time

Dear FT,


I changed my profile picture last night. It made me feel like we're really a couple. :">
I'm not saying that we aren't one, but it just makes it much more real.

Day one of courting you is done. I gave you kisses! Chocolate kisses! 52 chocolate kisses that you'd hopefully eat when you're better.

I have no idea how you got sick like that. I really hope you get better soon. I missed you. A lot. :) It was really good seeing you.

Yours,
Tata

"Courtship consists in a number of quiet attentions, not so pointed as to alarm, nor so vague as to not be understood." - Laurence Stern

Flowers Tomorrow

Tomato,

Happy 8.9.10! <3

I'm going to try and court you this week. I wonder if its going to work.

We uploaded the pictures in Facebook. Woohoo. I can't stay long, I want to finish my assignments so I can spend more time with you on Thursday!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you

"From small beginnings come great things" - Proverb

Ferry Thing

It was a Thursday.

You had a headache.

You were waiting for me.

It was the submission day for my 296 assignment. I was actually finished but I was waiting for Reena to finish hers because she was using my laptop.

You spent 2 hours sitting down while I was trying to help Reena. And yet even though that was the case, you still patiently waited for me.

When we were finally able to leave, we put most of our stuff in the locker and I made you carry the rest. You were my human bag, pillow, duvet and everything else that day. We went to Britomart and you bought us tickets to Devonport. It was my first time riding the ferry.

The wind was cold, but you very warm.

When we got to Devonport, we walked around the shops to look for food. Lucky for us we were able to find some! I bought chips which you were able to finish (Because you're so great!). We went to the docks first, but the big scary men and trucks chased us away. -_-

On a side note: I really want to go back that awesome shop in Devonport with the pig magnets and everything!

We moved to the park bench and then we watched the clouds change. And then we saw peeks of light slowly going down behind the trees and the buildings. The sun had gone down and I didn't notice because I was busy looking at you.

We moved again. This time to the steps that led to the beach. We sat there for a while, keeping warm and finishing those POTATO chips.

You were very adamant that we walk on the beach. Even if I prefer walking on warm summer nights, I realized that the cold winter nights were also enjoyable (especially since I was with you). :">

Finally we saw this extended rock based dock like thing with a circular rock chair at the end. We raced from and to it.

You gave me a five second headstart. I ran and won! ;)

When we were catching our breath. You said you said you had something you wanted me to listen to. It was quite cold and I had my arms around your waist beneath your jacket. A recorded guitar started playing and then you started singing.

It was very unexpected and very sweet. And I must admit that even at that point, I still had no clue on what you were planning to do.

And then you asked. And then it all made sense.

And then we were together.

We were able to catch the 6:45 ferry to the city. We went up Queen street and went back to uni just in time for the bus home. We finished the night off with lots of hugs and kisses.

It was a really good date. :)

Facebook Telling

FT,

We told Facebook and Facebook told everyone. Now everyone knows.

We're out of the closet.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you.

"All truths are easy to understand once discovered; the point is to discover them." - Galileo Galilei

First Time

Dear Potato,

This blog is for you.

We're in a mystery and I'm so excited to find out what's going to happen next. ❤

I want to write a lot of happy entries for us to remember.

I'm not sure when's the right time to give this to you, but I will. Hopefully by that time, our infinity and beyond of liking each other has become much much better and much much happier.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you.

"A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step" - Lao Tzu