Frigidaire Tonio

Hello blog,

I'm quite the lucky little girlfriend to have a boyfriend as loving as him. This week was full of ups and downs, but I was able to end it with lots of love and gratitude.

My busy week keeps me away from Tonio, but it makes me feel really special when he finds a way to come and see me. I was planning to go see him last Tuesday, however I've already made some plans I had to push through with. Wednesday was supposed to be an after school quick date, but it turned into the quest of the missing wallet. -_-

I thought I wasn't going to see him last Thursday, but I did! He even asked me out! :"> I was so kilig! We had noodles because I was craving noodles.

The truth is, this week was supposed to be money saving week. It was a complete disaster. I spent and spent and spent. However, Tonio was really supportive about the whole thing. He encouraged me and he tried to keep me from spending.I failed, but it's okay.

What's not as okay is eating out and spending too much. Specifically, me making him spend so much. I was thinking of buying him the noodles, I should've. He asked me out, but I insisted on those noodles (that he didn't finish).

My love is not working at the moment, and whatever money he gets I feel as if he spends on me. Point in case, we went out again today and he treated me Pita Pit and American Hotdogs. @___@ I'm a pig and he's a babe. The money he got from baking, he spent to feed me. :|

"Love, I really like it when we go out. I know, it's so expensive and money it tight. Plus, it's true that I might go overboard and over-stressed with a lot of things (like paying bills), but I really enjoy being with you. I hate not having money because it feels so restricting, so I can only imagine how you feel. But going out with you is really nice, if we only you can stop me from spending. :O

Alam mo you should let me treat you (or make me treat you). Honestly though, even if I always feel a little giddy pag dinadate mo ako and linilibre mo ako (kasi parang ang special ko), double naman yung guilt because I know you want a lot of things as well and inuubos ko money mo. :S

So maybe, just let me spend na lang muna, or we should really budget! @___@ GIVE ME YOUR BANK ACCOUNT NA! Uubusin ko na lang yung money mo pag may work ka na >:)) Joke! Well, basta! There should really be a system."

<3
Tata

Fortune's Touch

Dear blog,

I'm sure you've been wondering where we have been. Why we've been gone for more than a month or why there were no anniversary posts.

Well just so you know we aren't broken up! Phew!

Unluckily, we seem to be too busy to post things in. I would disagree (Tonio has a lot of time), but he just wants to post stuff when we fight. >:( Kidding! (I'm only half joking!) He doesn't even reply to my posts. :( Drama! :O

Anyway, we've been doing okay, so don't be too worried. Let me show you the pictures:

Tonio: Your dress is so shapeless. Me: -_-

We were fighting, he was trying to make it up with food.

(No, we didn't fight because of my shapeless dress)

Anniversary! <3 He asked me to be "officially" his girlfriend again.

I visit him and we ate kebab! I bought him a "Poo log".

We walked around the city as tourists and ate at BONGANE.

I'm drunk from your love at Kg's birthday.

We were feeling Japanese at Panmure. We also went to the library,

Taiwanese Festival = So much food.

Newmarket. I was doing my essay and he waited for me! @__@

Too cool at real groovy. NOT.

Fashion Weekend! <3

DOUBLE CHIN at the rugby world cup!

Spring at Albert Park before his Boy's Night Out!

See, we got some great memories stored at my laptop! More to come soon. I hope! <3

Love,
Tata

Fun Tastic

Happiness, you are my happiness.

I love you.

Finding Tonio

I've been discovering a lot about you. A lot of new things. I've realised things I haven't realised before.

I'm talking to you now through chat. I left my phone again at your house! ARGH. :(

Will get back phone tomorrow! Hopefully!

Fish Touring

Hello Blog,

You've missed a lot of drama! It's already June and poor May did not receive any updates of love. TT

I have no stories, as I cannot remember them. May was a blur of work and constant projects! @_____@

05-04 - Graduation, you asked me to be there. And I was. HAHAHAHAHA! I shouldn't have gone, so I could punish you! MWAHAHAHAHA! Joke! -_-

05-05 - DATE! Ok, so we were in this huge fight. But we still went out, that's <3 for you.

We had a fight this night. It was mainly because you didn't want to go home with me. :( It doesn't seem to make sense, but I felt so insecure. Ugh.

You always seem to be waiting for me. Why? Thank you for being patient.

May brought about lots of fights and naughtiness. :* I <3 YOU. A bit.

Kisses,

Tata

Final Time?

She's trying to move on without me. I'm still trying and hoping to make it work. If you don't hear anything after this, you know what happened.

Freezing Temperatures

Dear blog,

It feels so cold. And it's not just because of the approaching winter and rain pouring down these past few days. I don't know, it might be just me but Tata's seems so cold towards me right now. Do I have a right to even complain? We're still technically not together, so I don't know. Anyway, I just feel that the texts have been so formal, and all the spontaneity has just disappeared.

I went to her place this past Saturday. She was quiet and aloof most of the time. I felt really weird and kind of out of place. But that all changed after a few games of Mod Nation Racers. I saw the old Tata come back. The fun-loving, clingy, exciting Tata. I miss her already.

Oh well, I guess this is just a guy in denial rambling on and on. Forgive me.

-Tonio

P.S. I love you Tata.

Frozen Timer

Dear Blog,

We decided to take some time off for now. I hope our time spent apart will indeed help us grow and mature so that we can be better.

Dear Tata,

I love you. I still want to be with you. I'm still here if you need me.

Fleeing Together

Hello APRIL,

This is a month of promises. We're pushing the big seven, and as undutiful I am in my updates with this blog. I feel a blip coming on. You know blips. Those moments when the balloon just loses air and goes bliiiiiiiiiiiip. Or is it bloooop.

Anyway, I'm waiting for something to happen and I don't know what it is. I'm growing restless and I wish I could tell you what I want to happen so you'll do it and we'll be ok. Except, I don't know what it is and I can't tell you something I don't know.

 A few months ago. :"> Even though I ripple our relationship with my weirdness, certain moments just make it better. I'm waiting for something to happen, but I don't know what it is yet.

Lost,

Tata

P.S. Don't you find it weird replacing the vowel of lost produces different meanings. Last = Behind, Lest = To avoid, List = A series of words, Lost = Wandering without direction, Lust = Well you know.

So random. :O

Feeling Touched

Hello blog,

Tonio doesn’t like you. :(

Boo, so the second of March brings good news. First we are fat, oh joy! Next I’ve seen Tonio more times these weeks as compared to before. So super yay! (Tonio - Super yay din kasi din a niya ako aawayin!) However the most celebrated news is that his road to jobhood is finally moving towards a more exciting path.

Recapping February might be a hard one for me, but I shall try.

The last day of February was the first day of uni. Agitation sort of came in during the weekend making a not so good addition to the “getting angry for the smallest things” weekends I’ve been having.

I might have to cheat this one out and just wish I get to this on the next blog post coming soon because I'm going to be preparing for bed. Ok? :)

See ya soon.

I love you Tonio!

Love,
Tata

Frightened, Tense

Dear blog,

I don't know why I'm even posting right now. I'm just so tense and scared and afraid and restless. I messed up. I don't know what's going to happen next. I just hope and wish that we can set things right. Wish us luck.

Still trying to reach out beyond infinity,
FT

Fearful Tourist

Hello blog,

You shouldn't be called beyond infinity, hahaha, perhaps you should be referred to as beyond August but maybe until January. :)) Joke. I shall work hard to keep you alive and make us remember, do not fret.

The slow posts are just signs of lack of intellectual thoughts though, don't worry. I'm still hoping you will be filled with lots of memories which shall be made when we make them.

Until my next experience,
Tata

Flower Tower

Dear Love,

Welcome back! Haha, that might have been a week too late, but still I'm happy that you're back. Despite all the trouble I've been giving you (like getting mad at you for the most unreasonable thing), I'm happy you're here.

While January if quickly fleeting by, I want to make some changes in myself. I want to try to be a little less clingy and a little less over the top. If I am I mean, not that I mean to be. OH damn. Haha, even while writing I babble. Anyway, I want to try and make these goals work and in order for them to work I have to make some changes. I'll baby step myself into something that I want to become.

I know I'm overly dramatic, so maybe I should be a little less dramatic. On the other hand, if it's something I'm really comfortable with, then I really can't expect to just change over night. Everything is going to be a process.

So on to processing everything! Haha, I love you! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO US! :)

Love,
Tata

Happy Birthday!

Happy Happy Happy Happy Birthdaaaaaay!

You're 21 now! Tanda mo na! :p

I hope you have fun today! Just a few days left to go love, I'll see you again. :">

Freakin' Tired

Dearest Tata,

It's 4am here. I just got back from dinner with my HS batchmates. It was fun hanging out with them. Brings back old memories. It's nice to know that I'm still a part of their world. But at the end of the day, I walk alone. That's when I realized that the only time that I'm truly not alone is when I'm with you. 10 days to go love. Almost there.

5 months on Tata. :)

I miss you and I love you. See you soon.

-Tonio

Fortune Tortured

Dear Love,

This is the first day of the year. A year filled with the promise of infinite opportunities. If I think about the what might be's for this year, my heart is filled with so much hope that it can be a better year.

However, I can never forget the things which happened this year.

I'm thankful for all the good friends I was able to make and sad for the people I lost. I think this year my heart if it exists or not, if it's with me or you stole it, experienced something very unique. I was both happy and sad in moments unexpected and times I thought would be impossible.

2010 was a whirlwind of things that I didn't really know I wanted. I didn't know I want you, but now I love you. So therefore you're the one I never knew I wanted. ;)

Happy New Year!

Love,

Tata

P.S. I miss you so much