Freely Talk

Talk to me. Communication is key. I've told you before, if you have something to say, say it to me. I'm not a mind reader. I'm not that good at reading people. If I've done something wrong, tell me. Please? I want to be a better boyfriend. I want to make you happy. I want US to be happy. I think I've said that plenty of times already. Don't keep things to yourself. Tell me, and we'll find a way to make things work.

I like you. I NEED YOU. I LOVE YOU.

Forgive Tonio

Dear FT,

I'm really sorry for what just happened. Too much drama I guess. I wanted to talk to you tonight because we didn't get to spend much time together but you didn't reply so I thought you were sleeping but then I found out on Facebook that you were awake the whole time and then you replied and then drama drama drama. I'm really sorry. I'm going to try and sleep in a bit, but I don't think I'll be able to sleep well tonight. I'm not really sure if you're not annoyed at me anymore, so I guess I'll find out tomorrow.

It's alright to be annoyed. It's alright to be angry, mad or sad. It's not going to be always super happy all the time. So please, if I did something stupid, be angry at me. Tell me I was being stupid. Tell me to stop it with the drama. Don't suppress those negative feelings. I've done you wrong before, but you just brushed it aside and acted almost like nothing happened. I guess it was "okay" back then because there was no "us" yet. But now, please, if you're angry with me, please be angry with me? Let it out.

Again, I'm sorry. Oo na, makulit na. Thanks for the card, and I also read the poem. I hope things get better when/if see each other tomorrow.

Love,
FT

P.S. I lesbians you. :*

Filmed Together

I've said this before and I'll say it again, I still don't get why we take a bajillion pictures every time we're together. Maybe it's a thing for you girls. I don't know, but I'm not complaining. It's fun looking at our photos together. :)

You used to stop me whenever I was trying to take photos of the times when we were together. You used to dislike having "evidence", but look now! BOOM!

Two hands together. Yours and mine. No, wait... OURS. I was sure that there could be something once we started holding hands. And look at us now, isn't this something? :p

I want to hold your hand. Will you hold mine? I won't let go. I promise.

<3s,
Tonio

Fantastic Tune

My dearest boyfriend,

I've been writing blogs for a long time. Each one I abandon after a couple of entries, just to start a new one after a while. The last blog I made, I left to write for you (sort of). At the start of our relationship, I wanted to write this blog to show me how our relationship progressed and to serve as a memory bank of all the things we were going to do.

I'm not very good at remembering things and this was a way to make me remember, but amusingly as I continually wrote about us, the more my feelings for you grew. It grew to a point where I'm now motivated to write it for you, so that you won't forget that were good. That what we have is good, if not great.

I decided to show you this for our first monthsary, because I wanted you to see my thoughts, feelings and random posts. I also wanted you to remember what we did and what we have. I'm also sharing this blog with you. You can write in it if you want to. :">

Happy first month! I hope we have more and more amazing months to come.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I lesbians you.

Flowing Thumps

Dear FT,

I was really happy to see you yesterday!

We met up at around 9 AM, I was getting some cash out and you surprised me from behind. We walked to the train station which is why your sick right now. :(

There weren't a lot of people on the platform that early, so I was able to hug and steal kisses from you. It was my first time to ride a train and it took us less than 2 minutes to reach Sylvia Park. :| Hoyts was still closed when we got there so we were able to look around at Whitcoulls for a bit. We browsed magazines, children's books, fiction, comics and coffee table books. We looked at the cards of course, among other things.

When were finally able to get our tickets, we had to wait around before the movie started. We took a picture in one of those photo booths. I really enjoyed that. Haha!

The movie was great and as a bonus, I enjoyed being close to you while we were watching.

Lunch at burger fuel was awesome. Next time I bet I can finish my own and you only have to help me a bit. HAHAHAHAHA... Going around Sylvia Park and meeting people, looking at shops is something I really enjoy when I'm with you (but please destroy the purple wigged picture. PLEASE!).

Going back to Panmure, mixing up the trains, buying things, walking to your house, entering your house, seeing your family and slightly talking to them was... interesting. I think it was one of the most funnily stressful things I've done. Maybe it's because I really like you or something. This is crazy. You're crazy. Being with you makes me crazy. I really like you.

I really really do. I want to be with you. All the time. I can probably live without you, but I feel like I'd be happier if I was with you. That's what you make me feel. Sometimes when the day is about to end, I anticipate us parting, because at that moment I feel the strongest urge to kiss you. To kiss you in a way that will keep me satisfied until the next time I see you.

I want to kiss you right now.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I want you.

Four Tricks

Dear Fatato,


August 18, was a Wednesday. First: We were together in the morning.


A few minutes before my class we went to UBS with Karyn and I gave you another card about hugs. You're just so huggable. <3

Second: After my class I went to meet you at the quad and I had noodles (:">) and we had ice cream. I was starting to feel a little bit off that day.

You took me to my next class and was late for yours. O_____O

Third: I just realized that you waited with me until the PMI meeting started. We had curly fries with other BBIM friends. :} And the momentous moment of Tim's "I have no accent"

After the PMI meeting, I wasn't able to catch the 7:30 bus, I caught the 8:30 one.

Fourth: You met up with me in Greenlane. And you gave me a cupcake.

You're too sweet. <3

It's been a really awesome day today. I've been with you on four separate  times on the same day. It's insane. Oh gosh.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you!

Let's be stupid together? ;)

Fingers Tell

Dear FT,

My previous recap of the overall awesome week turned into a rant. Sorry! -_- This is take two.

I should meditate off all the bad vibes first. RAWR.

Bad vibes are gone. <3

August 17, was a Tuesday. It was breakfast picnic day. My darn phone decided to kill off its internal speakers on me, so I had to put you on speakers every time I called you. I remember we were talking the night before and I was trying to color the rest of the signs. I failed to finish it because you thought I was doing something important. Rats! I had to do it on the bus. :))

I was also looking at metservice every so often to check if it would rain or not. It didn't. :) I was at high street looking for dessert when you finished class. It was a good... morning.

After my class, I went to watch a movie ("sine") with Andrea and Reena. You decided to wait for me. You were supposed to do your assignment but you fell asleep. Tsk tsk.

I went back up to get my things and then we went to Britomart. Oh wait, we went to get some cake first. :) And then we waited for the bus, but we weren't able to get a seat. It's your fault! :))

HAHAHAHAHA.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you!

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous" - Ingrid Bergman

From Ten-Thirty

To Nine-Fifteen

You were with me.

Thank you. <3

Frozen Turn

It was a Thursday and a Saturday.

I've noticed that as the days of our relationship grow, the closer and sweeter we become. Like fruit, we're slowly ripening up. Hopefully though, we harvest our feelings before they rot.

You sent me a text message in the morning saying:

It really made me think. I've deleted most of the messages in my phone but I've decided to keep this one, just so I can show you if it ever happens. I'm not sure what I want. Love is very complicated. Do I really want to complicate us? I just feel happy when I make you feel happy, but when is the right time to start feeling those feelings? I guess I'll only find out when it happens.

Last Thursday, I was MIA in uni because I was with you. Well partially because I was with you. I made a couple of people worry, but then it was all worth it because I got to spend time with you. Those few hours flew by so fast that I couldn't believe that we were together for that long.

Last Saturday, despite the amount of people around us, I still couldn't stop myself. I remember you were talking about gayuma, perhaps you did use it on me, because I really do like you and I can't keep myself from being with you.

Tomorrow, I'm going to try and sweep you off your feet. :*

I'm always happy when I'm with you.

Fixed Taste

Potato,

I'm getting addicted to you and I think its not healthy. :))

This was our first Saturday together and we got to sleep beside each other as a bonus. Awesome. We went to KG's surprise birthday party and I really had fun. Did you have fun? I was with you most of the time, but you got pretty sleepy early on. Did you drink a lot? I can't remember anything.

I do remember certain things though. >:) You're too much! Joke!

Oh dear mashimaro, what will happen to us? Huh?

Waking up beside you/Not really sleeping beside you is great. How will I ever sleep alone again? Haha, where are we going anyway? I really don't know. Are you scared? I'm not. I think. I really should switch my late evening blogging sessions to the morning. My head is pretty much wasted from this point and I'm starting to type random babbles.

I'll probably update this sometime tomorrow.

Till I see you again!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you. MORE.

Frisson Tales

Mashimaro,

You've just transformed into a fat white rabbit to me. Wikipedia describes him as someone who is "not above using violence to impose his will on others" RAWR!

So today was day four of courting Tonio. It was a partial success? Maybe, it depends on the result. I gave you this cute little box with chocolate hearts on the inside. I forgot to take a picture of it. I was kind of in a hurry and I wasn't able to get you a card cause you finished earlier than expected. FAIL. And then I sort of blew my cover and you saw me before you were able to open my locker. FAIL part deux.

But it seemed that you were surprised! :"> Woot. Are you going to say yes to me anytime soon? Haha, I hope so!

I got to spend a majority of the day with you. It was great. I feel clingy, I should stop. Hahahaha. <3

You rushed in the morning to get on the same bus with me. Thank you! And then you were with me after lunch. Thank you again! And then you even went home with me. Thank you so much!

You're making it impossible for me to go on a day without you, you should stop. Or not. It depends. :)

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you

"Kisses honeyed by oblivion" - George Eliot

You're so vain!

Flaming Touches

Dear FT,

HAPPY One week! :)

So this is it. We've made it to a full week. Congratulations!

Last Wednesday was day two of courting you. I opted to go for the RAWR-ing dinosaur. I wasn't able to take a picture of it though. We met up in the library and I was able to give it to you there. And then I wrote this note on a piece of paper and I forgot to color the RAWR part. :)) I colored it while you were studying. Haha, and then we did the whole thing again. Thanks for giving me another chance. >:D<

I was with you for lunch, as well as dinner! Wow, it's been great being with you.

And then today I gave you a card. FAIL. Hahaha, you got here before I could write on it. YOUUUU! :* Today was really interesting. I never knew time could fly by so fast. You were amazing. :)

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you!

P.P.S. >:*< and more!

Following Time

Dear FT,


I changed my profile picture last night. It made me feel like we're really a couple. :">
I'm not saying that we aren't one, but it just makes it much more real.

Day one of courting you is done. I gave you kisses! Chocolate kisses! 52 chocolate kisses that you'd hopefully eat when you're better.

I have no idea how you got sick like that. I really hope you get better soon. I missed you. A lot. :) It was really good seeing you.

Yours,
Tata

"Courtship consists in a number of quiet attentions, not so pointed as to alarm, nor so vague as to not be understood." - Laurence Stern

Flowers Tomorrow

Tomato,

Happy 8.9.10! <3

I'm going to try and court you this week. I wonder if its going to work.

We uploaded the pictures in Facebook. Woohoo. I can't stay long, I want to finish my assignments so I can spend more time with you on Thursday!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you

"From small beginnings come great things" - Proverb

Ferry Thing

It was a Thursday.

You had a headache.

You were waiting for me.

It was the submission day for my 296 assignment. I was actually finished but I was waiting for Reena to finish hers because she was using my laptop.

You spent 2 hours sitting down while I was trying to help Reena. And yet even though that was the case, you still patiently waited for me.

When we were finally able to leave, we put most of our stuff in the locker and I made you carry the rest. You were my human bag, pillow, duvet and everything else that day. We went to Britomart and you bought us tickets to Devonport. It was my first time riding the ferry.

The wind was cold, but you very warm.

When we got to Devonport, we walked around the shops to look for food. Lucky for us we were able to find some! I bought chips which you were able to finish (Because you're so great!). We went to the docks first, but the big scary men and trucks chased us away. -_-

On a side note: I really want to go back that awesome shop in Devonport with the pig magnets and everything!

We moved to the park bench and then we watched the clouds change. And then we saw peeks of light slowly going down behind the trees and the buildings. The sun had gone down and I didn't notice because I was busy looking at you.

We moved again. This time to the steps that led to the beach. We sat there for a while, keeping warm and finishing those POTATO chips.

You were very adamant that we walk on the beach. Even if I prefer walking on warm summer nights, I realized that the cold winter nights were also enjoyable (especially since I was with you). :">

Finally we saw this extended rock based dock like thing with a circular rock chair at the end. We raced from and to it.

You gave me a five second headstart. I ran and won! ;)

When we were catching our breath. You said you said you had something you wanted me to listen to. It was quite cold and I had my arms around your waist beneath your jacket. A recorded guitar started playing and then you started singing.

It was very unexpected and very sweet. And I must admit that even at that point, I still had no clue on what you were planning to do.

And then you asked. And then it all made sense.

And then we were together.

We were able to catch the 6:45 ferry to the city. We went up Queen street and went back to uni just in time for the bus home. We finished the night off with lots of hugs and kisses.

It was a really good date. :)

Facebook Telling

FT,

We told Facebook and Facebook told everyone. Now everyone knows.

We're out of the closet.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you.

"All truths are easy to understand once discovered; the point is to discover them." - Galileo Galilei

First Time

Dear Potato,

This blog is for you.

We're in a mystery and I'm so excited to find out what's going to happen next. ❤

I want to write a lot of happy entries for us to remember.

I'm not sure when's the right time to give this to you, but I will. Hopefully by that time, our infinity and beyond of liking each other has become much much better and much much happier.

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you.

"A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step" - Lao Tzu