Fortune's Touch

Dear blog,

I'm sure you've been wondering where we have been. Why we've been gone for more than a month or why there were no anniversary posts.

Well just so you know we aren't broken up! Phew!

Unluckily, we seem to be too busy to post things in. I would disagree (Tonio has a lot of time), but he just wants to post stuff when we fight. >:( Kidding! (I'm only half joking!) He doesn't even reply to my posts. :( Drama! :O

Anyway, we've been doing okay, so don't be too worried. Let me show you the pictures:

Tonio: Your dress is so shapeless. Me: -_-

We were fighting, he was trying to make it up with food.

(No, we didn't fight because of my shapeless dress)

Anniversary! <3 He asked me to be "officially" his girlfriend again.

I visit him and we ate kebab! I bought him a "Poo log".

We walked around the city as tourists and ate at BONGANE.

I'm drunk from your love at Kg's birthday.

We were feeling Japanese at Panmure. We also went to the library,

Taiwanese Festival = So much food.

Newmarket. I was doing my essay and he waited for me! @__@

Too cool at real groovy. NOT.

Fashion Weekend! <3

DOUBLE CHIN at the rugby world cup!

Spring at Albert Park before his Boy's Night Out!

See, we got some great memories stored at my laptop! More to come soon. I hope! <3

Love,
Tata

FT

Why hello there stranger,

How are you? Are you feeling much better adjusted in the land of suman and pancit? :{ Growing a mustache aye? Joke, I don't really know. Haven't seen you in ages and I've been really slacking off in my facebook stalking duties. Rawr.

I've missed you a lot. My laptop nightmare has driven me to an absolute wave of insanity. I cried talking to a call center agent who claims they're in Australia when obviously they are not. :| Frustration overload. As each grueling moments passes, I honestly wished you were here to save me.

On the other hand, your absence sort of let me see myself better. I'm stuck in a rut and I know it. When you were here, I used you as an excuse to put things off, but now that you're not here anymore, I've realized that those days are over. I still have time and I suppose I'm going to use that time to actually get my act together. I miss you, I really do, I don't want to, but I do. :( I'm not sure if it's a bad thing or not, but not talking to you somehow lessens the miserable feeling of missing you. It's so weird. Maybe not talking makes me forget to miss you, even for a while.

I wanted to break it off with you because I knew that missing you would just be terrible, and then when you left, I made it even worse by clinging on to you in a way I wasn't supposed to. I'm not going to do that anymore love. I don't want you to worry about me anymore. Just have fun there, don't get more credit for me. You'll be there for only a couple more weeks, it's best you spend it on the things that will make you happy there. I've topped up more this week than I can count and it's ridiculous. I thought minutes spent talking to you would actually help me feel better, but I was wrong. It only works if we both feel the same way. Now all I feel is animosity towards the situation. That's going to change because I'm really happy for you and I'm going to keep myself busy.

My grandparents are here! So that means more things to do and less missing you. I love you. I love you. I love you. :*

Despite being boyfriendless (semi), laptopless and jobless this Christmas season, self satisfaction has attacked me like they were fated to do so and this has given me inspiration (it's only a few hours old so give it some time to flourish). I'm going to be fine, you're going to be fine. I wish I could see you. I love you. Take care.

I'm still here when you come back anyway.

I hope you're happy,
Tata

P.S. I get over dramatic when I'm trying not to miss you.

FT

I'm still money less. My easy access account is hungry for money! I should know by the 15th if I can get half of my target money at least. :)) I'll try and improve my chances on the weekend. I'll work on it really hard. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Anyway in work news, I've submitted my crappy two paged resume. I really think I should have put a little bit more effort into it, but I'm putting it off till the weekend. What's bugging me though is the fact that the "Job Application" note on my phone has been there for ages and I've only been actively searching for one this week. (And then failing to press the apply button out of my feelings of inadequacy)

On a side note: I still haven't gone to get my phone fixed. :| This has to stop. Days of excessive procrastination will forever ruin my life and my phone.

Love, I think my life may not go anywhere. It's even possible that I'm going to be the next spokesperson for failure. Would you still love me, even after that?

Ok, i should get ready soon, because I'm going to Karyn's house at around 5 or 6. Boo. I miss you love. Catch you next year. ;)

Day 8

Hi love, today I got to talk to you again! It's becoming a habit isn't it? We talked about some stuff that left me wanting you more. Oh dear love, stop making me want you more. I might not be able to control myself. :p

Today, I got to meet your Tito Das. He's a really cool guy, I understand why he's your favorite. I think he's a very happy person, because he's always smiling. He told me lots of stuff about you. Ba na na naaaaa... I learned a lot about you today love, and I think I understand you more.

40 days to go. We can do this. :)

Day 7

And here I thought this day would be boring and uneventful. How wrong could I get? Oh my love, the things we do. >:)

I couldn't resist your charm love. Even though we're apart, I can't say no to you. :">

I wish I was there last night, so we could be together. I wish I can just go back right now, so we don't have to be apart. I miss you even more. :*

P.S. I can't wait to get my hands on you again. ;)

FT

Hello December 3! It's 12 AM here. I was hoping to catch you pero I'm so sleepy, I'll sleep na. I really want to hear your voice. :(

In Karyn's words "I'm whipped."

I love you.

Finding Trouble

Dear Tonio,

I wish I wrote more last month. Looking back, it seems that motivation has slowly left me ever since I showed it to you. Perhaps in the beginning I was more engaged in writing because I wanted to make you remember instead of my ideal reason of me being able to remember. But now, all I want is to remember and the words I wanted to see weren't written.

I guess I want reassurance and words in this blog would reassure me of us. The existence of us and that the longevity of our relationship wouldn't be measured. Do you think as our relationship grows older, we've changed? Sometimes I wish you would answer my questions. So I know that you actually read the posts. I know you read them, but I don't know when you read them and whether the feelings I have on these blog posts is still the same when you do get the time to do so. I'm not saying check this everyday, because to be honest I don't check everyday, but knowing that you know this and everything I type is potentially information you'd be getting, I'm consciously writing for you.

I don't even know why I did this, our relationship is not very complicated. I'm not sure if we're the couple who's going with the flow or we're the couple who's really serious about the whole relationship thing. I'm a bit concerned about our future, whatever it may be. I'm not expecting anything, but I don't want to start thinking about things.

Despite all of my buts and drama, I really want something simple. Loving you could be very simple. However, my nature seems to be causing all the complications we have. I mean look at me, I'm writing recklessly without knowing where this is going. I'm demanding and full of drama. I made a blog to pseudo document our relationship, I have this feeling it's bordering creepy.

I could just email you everything. I could make it easier for the both of us. You could reply in an email, but perhaps it's not the conversation I'm after. It's actually the things I couldn't tell you. The way I see what's happening to us while we try and grow as a couple.

For all I know, October could've been the best month of our relationship. I should write more. Maybe then this blog can be useful. Do you really feel my love?

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I love you.

Familiar Treats

Dear love,

I'm the crazy girl who's still up doing nothing productive when I'm supposed to be doing something really important or maybe sleeping because we might be going to church really early and lack of sleep isn't very good and that might be a bad way to start my day.

That was the worst running sentence I've ever made. Without commas and all those jazzy punctuations too! Phew!

So love, it has been more than half a month since my last post. Talk about procrastination! Sheesh! Let me tell you something about October. It's a very hectic month. Everything is due on October, oh dameet! :}

If I can pull back some memories, October 1 was a Friday. I didn't pull that from my memory though, I got that from the calendar. Ok, ok, let me think October 1 was a Friday. Hmm... Oh, it was the week where I was sort of out of it. I didn't go to uni that day. I was really just sulking away at home. I didn't see you though, which meant I didn't see you for the following three days. :(

Saturday was the burial and then Sunday was just staying at home. When I came to uni on Monday, Andrea and I had this huge emotional session instead of going to our Marketing lecture. I remember I was pretty broke that day. :)) Broke and emotionally drained because of our talk. Hahahaha.

Anyway, Tuesday was our 2nd month. :"> We went to Mt. Eden. Haha, subway and more.

Moving on, the next few days were spent working on different projects? And staying at home to take care of Vincent. The first few weeks of October have been really hectic. Let's see, Thursday the 7th we went home together, you were a bit sick though. :(

Mondays are becoming boo days, I never get to see you on a Monday. :(

Tuesday, instead of going early to uni, I met up with you instead. Haha, you were rushing me the whole day! I was late for class. ARGH. :))

Now the next day, I was feeling so bad I had to stay home. Gosh love you made me sick. :O

Thursday, I had my last lecture with Koro, I was feeling really sick and then this was the day I didn't see you at all. Oh dear, bad vibes.

And then October 15, which was last Friday, we stayed in the city until 10:30. Haha, we were supposed to leave at 9:30 but we ended up leaving an hour later because you wanted to be with me for much longer. HAHAHAHA, come on, don't deny it.

I got distracted writing this by watching old Rico Yan videos. Haha, anyway I love you BABY!

:)

Mwah!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I can't wait to see you love.

Finish Today

Recapping everything that happened last September. You fool! Such a procrastinator.

Dear Toh-nee-oh,

Last September was the second month of our relationship. *GASP* And it was so poorly documented that here is my attempt at letting us remember all the ups and downs of the month.

September 1, Wednesday, this was interesting, do you remember? We stayed at home. :) Pistachio ice cream FTW.

September 2, Thursday, no Thursdate. Hahaha, Sad.

September 3, Movie? Train? Your house. Hahaha!

September 4 & September 5, Weekends without you. :( But then the fifth was our monthsary! Happy! :">

September 6, Monday, Morning date ++;

September 7, Tuesday, No you and me, together. :(

September 8, Wednesday, Bbq! Good friends, good food, waiting for everyone to come. Going in and out! Madness!

September 9, Thursday, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Do you remember love?

September 10, Friday, Love your possums, your DEAD possums, they just don't exist ok?

September 11 & September 12, torture weekends, doing OPS? MKTG? Some sort of assignment.

September 13, Monday, First day of uni. No uni for you. :))

September 14, Tuesday, No class for me, no class for you too. >:))

September 15, Wednesday, Void, what happened? :|

September 16, Thursday, Drama! >:D<

September 17, Friday, Did we have our first fight yesterday? Was it a fight?

September 18 & September 19, First weekend together in the month! :">

Note: Our calendar is empty! Boo! How am I supposed to finish this?

September 20, Monday, No classes for you again! Oh boo!

September 21, Tuesday, I didn't go to class! RAWR, why?

September 22, Wednesday, Test in INFO. Hahahaha! Didn't study. Thank you for waiting for me. 

September 23, Thursday, I have one class, which I attended, woot for me! Then...

September 24, Friday, Acoustic night. *CLAP CLAP*

September 25 & September 26, Weekends chill.

September 27, Monday, Hulu Cat without you! :(

September 28, Tuesday, Desperately trying to finish Ops, spent the morning with you. :D Surprised you with a date. Woke you up too early? Was in your class but wasn't in mine. :))

September 29, Wednesday, Tiring day. :|

September 30, Thursday, I didn't go to uni today, I robbed you of precious hours you could've spent writing your essay. But, I was really happy you were here, with me. I love you.

Love,

Tata

P.S. I want to be with you.

For The

Love of Tata

Hello boyfriend,

I wanted to do some posts about the great weeks that passed by, but it seems like I could never find the time to do it. Funny enough, I'm doing this a couple of minutes before my test. That's weirdness for you. Haha, anyway, I'm going to try and update this this week. I was thinking of doing three seperate posts for each week and then do posts for the individual days that I really really have a lot to say about. MWAHAHAHAHA.

Love,
Tata

P.S. I love you