Failure To

Keep.

Can I keep you? For how long, I don't know. For how much, I cannot say. All I know is I want to be with you, so I can find out how long and how much I'll want you for.

Our google calendar is a mess, we don't have entries after September. :( I wonder how long this blog will last? We're like choosing our technology flavour of the month. Haha, wanna make a tumblr? I love you.

We look so tired. Boo!

Your,

Tata

Daily Blogging Failure

Love, I've missed the last few days of blogging! Boooo. Anyway, I'm glad we got to chat today ang play that game in OMGPOP. I miss you love, let's go out when I get back. Let's go walking up a mountain or something. :)

Love you, see you soon. :*

Day 16

Today, we celebrated our lola's 80th birthday! Yay! We went to mass in the morning, which, to my surprise, was only attended by our family. I found out that it was a special mass, because the daily masses were usually held at 5am (WTF?!). I did the first reading and responsorial psalm, so I got to sit in the very front row. Woo. I've always wanted to sit there ever since I was a kid. :p

We ate lots of food afterwards and visited an aviary. It was such a fun day with our relatives. :)

I hope you're having fun with your grandparents as well.

Love you!

Day 15

Today, I had lunch with two of my elementary friends. You can see the photo on Facebook! I really wish you could meet them and get to know them. And hopefully I could meet some of your old friends too. We could learn a lot about each other from them. It would help with our relationship. :)

Am I being too serious love? What do you think? :p

FT

Why hello there stranger,

How are you? Are you feeling much better adjusted in the land of suman and pancit? :{ Growing a mustache aye? Joke, I don't really know. Haven't seen you in ages and I've been really slacking off in my facebook stalking duties. Rawr.

I've missed you a lot. My laptop nightmare has driven me to an absolute wave of insanity. I cried talking to a call center agent who claims they're in Australia when obviously they are not. :| Frustration overload. As each grueling moments passes, I honestly wished you were here to save me.

On the other hand, your absence sort of let me see myself better. I'm stuck in a rut and I know it. When you were here, I used you as an excuse to put things off, but now that you're not here anymore, I've realized that those days are over. I still have time and I suppose I'm going to use that time to actually get my act together. I miss you, I really do, I don't want to, but I do. :( I'm not sure if it's a bad thing or not, but not talking to you somehow lessens the miserable feeling of missing you. It's so weird. Maybe not talking makes me forget to miss you, even for a while.

I wanted to break it off with you because I knew that missing you would just be terrible, and then when you left, I made it even worse by clinging on to you in a way I wasn't supposed to. I'm not going to do that anymore love. I don't want you to worry about me anymore. Just have fun there, don't get more credit for me. You'll be there for only a couple more weeks, it's best you spend it on the things that will make you happy there. I've topped up more this week than I can count and it's ridiculous. I thought minutes spent talking to you would actually help me feel better, but I was wrong. It only works if we both feel the same way. Now all I feel is animosity towards the situation. That's going to change because I'm really happy for you and I'm going to keep myself busy.

My grandparents are here! So that means more things to do and less missing you. I love you. I love you. I love you. :*

Despite being boyfriendless (semi), laptopless and jobless this Christmas season, self satisfaction has attacked me like they were fated to do so and this has given me inspiration (it's only a few hours old so give it some time to flourish). I'm going to be fine, you're going to be fine. I wish I could see you. I love you. Take care.

I'm still here when you come back anyway.

I hope you're happy,
Tata

P.S. I get over dramatic when I'm trying not to miss you.

Day 14

Today, we visited my grandmother's brother, who is 91 years old. He's weak, and all he does is sit all day. He can't see and hear pretty well too. We had to write some of what we were saying on a whiteboard so that he could understand us. It was pretty sad really, and I think I almost cried. He still had a sense of humor left though, because he told us that one day, we would all be like him. Haha and huhu.

We went shopping for food again. We bought lots of spanish bread! I'm soooo fat.

I miss you. :*

Day 13

I hung out with my cousins today love. I also found out that all my weekends are booked already and that it's going to be 2 weeks tomorrow. 4 weeks left love! We're getting closer and closer to seeing each other again! I miss you. I need to get more credit so I can text you, my dear Gitanna. I hope you can go online soon. :)

P.S. Eat well. You look thin. :p

Day 12

I was hoping that somehow you'd be able to go online today even if your laptop's kinda dead at the moment. But I guess not. I'll just wait love. :)

FT

I'm still money less. My easy access account is hungry for money! I should know by the 15th if I can get half of my target money at least. :)) I'll try and improve my chances on the weekend. I'll work on it really hard. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Anyway in work news, I've submitted my crappy two paged resume. I really think I should have put a little bit more effort into it, but I'm putting it off till the weekend. What's bugging me though is the fact that the "Job Application" note on my phone has been there for ages and I've only been actively searching for one this week. (And then failing to press the apply button out of my feelings of inadequacy)

On a side note: I still haven't gone to get my phone fixed. :| This has to stop. Days of excessive procrastination will forever ruin my life and my phone.

Love, I think my life may not go anywhere. It's even possible that I'm going to be the next spokesperson for failure. Would you still love me, even after that?

Ok, i should get ready soon, because I'm going to Karyn's house at around 5 or 6. Boo. I miss you love. Catch you next year. ;)

Day 11

Today, I had lunch with a different group of friends from UP. We ate at Reyes BBQ at the TechnoHub. It was okay, quite similar to Steak Escape actually. Not much happened today except that I walked around UP alone for nearly 2 hours. I'm not being emo love, don't worry. It's just that I wanted to check out the changes in UP but I didn't have anyone to walk with. Maybe someday you could walk with me?

Day 10

I didn't get to talk to you today. And you didn't tell me what was bothering you. Anyway, Angelo and I went to SM North and Trinoma today. We also watched Skyline (not worth the money!) and walked around because we wanted to see how big SM North really is. It's kind of difficult to take in its hugeness, because it's divided into three. Although you could say that each of those three could pass as a mall by themselves. And oh, while we were walking outside SM North, somebody grabbed my shoulder which really surprised me. When I turned around there was a girl and a guy behind me. I had my "WTF?!" face on until she said that she was Tiff! Hahaha. Wow. Talk about a random encounter. And I just had a haircut! That was funny, weird, random and awesome all at the same time! Oh my dear Tata, I wonder what you're up to? You're not telling me much love. Hope we can talk soon! Love you!

FT

Step one of project $200 has been started! An expected income of $95 is listed. Wish me luck! :)

Day 9

Today, I just sat in front of the computer. The whole day! I didn't really notice because I was busy chatting with you! Time flies when you're talking with the one you love. ;) The only time I went outside the house today was to buy some bread. I bought some spanish bread, kalihim and some crinkles. For the record, my crinkles are way better. Hahahaha. I think I'm going to try and learn how to make spanish bread before I come back. They're so yummy!

Day 8

Hi love, today I got to talk to you again! It's becoming a habit isn't it? We talked about some stuff that left me wanting you more. Oh dear love, stop making me want you more. I might not be able to control myself. :p

Today, I got to meet your Tito Das. He's a really cool guy, I understand why he's your favorite. I think he's a very happy person, because he's always smiling. He told me lots of stuff about you. Ba na na naaaaa... I learned a lot about you today love, and I think I understand you more.

40 days to go. We can do this. :)

FT

Love,

KANIN Club! Did you eat the sinigang rice? The fried sinigang rice? THE RICE! I bet you don't remember, but I told you about it a long time ago.

I've been pretty lazy again, but I was able to finish my CV and then I was able to apply for a bit. I'll probably do more searching tomorrow. I've been talking with Dale and we were looking for jobs together. Haha, sort of funny though, how badly we were doing. While I'm still in the process of job hunting, I'm going to try and get me some money. I can't steal from my secret fund anymore, because I'm sure that if I go on living like this, there will be no secret fund. :(

$200 will be the goal. I should set a deadline right? Hmm, I should raise that amount by the 20th. Woot, do you think I'll be able to do it? :">

I'll keep you updated!

With all the love in the world,
Tata

Day 7

And here I thought this day would be boring and uneventful. How wrong could I get? Oh my love, the things we do. >:)

I couldn't resist your charm love. Even though we're apart, I can't say no to you. :">

I wish I was there last night, so we could be together. I wish I can just go back right now, so we don't have to be apart. I miss you even more. :*

P.S. I can't wait to get my hands on you again. ;)

Day 6

Happy 4th month my love. I tried calling you today, but I couldn't hear you clearly because someone was trying to fix a motorcycle across the road. But at least I got to hear your voice today, and at least I got to greet you. Also, I got to chat with you for a bit today too! I was actually going to take a nap but then I checked the time and thought that you'd probably be online. Good thing I checked. Only 5 more weeks to go love! We can do this! Sabi ni Pin, "Nothing is impossible basta true love". Do you think our love is true? I do. :">

Day 5

Today, I had lunch with my blockmates and some other friends that were close to our block. We ate at LaMesa Grill at Trinoma. The food was okay, but the servings were a bit small. I still ate a lot though. After that we were supposed to watch HP7, but the schedule we saw on ClickTheCity was wrong so some of us didn't watch because they had to leave. I've been saying this a lot, but it's true, everybody has asked me about you. They want to meet you, to get to know you. I'm hoping one day you get to meet them. All of them. I also got a haircut in a Bench Fix salon. And for the record, I hate SM North. Too many people AND more importantly, not enough signs for restrooms. I was on the 3rd floor and had to go down to the first floor because it was the only clearly marked restroom. GOSH. Hahaha.

Day 4

I think this day was the most expensive one in my life. Hahaha. I ate so much! Today I got to meet most of my friends' girlfriends. Will I ever get the chance to introduce you to them as well? Because it was really fun meeting them, and I think it would be nice if you got to know my friends too. It was really great being with my friends again, it felt like I belonged but then again, I kind of felt alone, because they had someone to hold hands with, someone to hug. I missed you a bit more. Anyway, I think you're going to win our little contest! For lunch, I went to the Beach House in UP, then to House of Sisig. For snacks, we went to Coffee Bean in Ayala TechnoHub. We stayed there for almost 5 hours! After that, we went to Kanin Club for dinner! My stomach is soooo big! Is yours too? Are you eating a lot? I love you!

FT

Hello December 3! It's 12 AM here. I was hoping to catch you pero I'm so sleepy, I'll sleep na. I really want to hear your voice. :(

In Karyn's words "I'm whipped."

I love you.

Day 3

I woke up at 5:30am PHT because we were going to hitch a ride with our uncle to QC. Wow. It was soooo early. And my gosh, the traffic! It was so slow. Ouch. We also went to Trinoma and watched "The Next 3 Days". It was a tiring day love. I'm looking forward to the next time I get to talk to you. I hope you're doing well. :)

Day 2

I didn't do much today. But, I found my old guitar. It's 6 years old and hasn't been played for 3 years. I think I'll clean it up and change the strings and see how it goes. I went to my cousin's place and got to talk to you for around 3 hours! Yay! I'm sorry that my mic wasn't working, but I'll see what I can do. Did I tell you that you're so cute? Because you are! I miss you!