Failure To

Keep.

Can I keep you? For how long, I don't know. For how much, I cannot say. All I know is I want to be with you, so I can find out how long and how much I'll want you for.

Our google calendar is a mess, we don't have entries after September. :( I wonder how long this blog will last? We're like choosing our technology flavour of the month. Haha, wanna make a tumblr? I love you.

We look so tired. Boo!

Your,

Tata

FT

Why hello there stranger,

How are you? Are you feeling much better adjusted in the land of suman and pancit? :{ Growing a mustache aye? Joke, I don't really know. Haven't seen you in ages and I've been really slacking off in my facebook stalking duties. Rawr.

I've missed you a lot. My laptop nightmare has driven me to an absolute wave of insanity. I cried talking to a call center agent who claims they're in Australia when obviously they are not. :| Frustration overload. As each grueling moments passes, I honestly wished you were here to save me.

On the other hand, your absence sort of let me see myself better. I'm stuck in a rut and I know it. When you were here, I used you as an excuse to put things off, but now that you're not here anymore, I've realized that those days are over. I still have time and I suppose I'm going to use that time to actually get my act together. I miss you, I really do, I don't want to, but I do. :( I'm not sure if it's a bad thing or not, but not talking to you somehow lessens the miserable feeling of missing you. It's so weird. Maybe not talking makes me forget to miss you, even for a while.

I wanted to break it off with you because I knew that missing you would just be terrible, and then when you left, I made it even worse by clinging on to you in a way I wasn't supposed to. I'm not going to do that anymore love. I don't want you to worry about me anymore. Just have fun there, don't get more credit for me. You'll be there for only a couple more weeks, it's best you spend it on the things that will make you happy there. I've topped up more this week than I can count and it's ridiculous. I thought minutes spent talking to you would actually help me feel better, but I was wrong. It only works if we both feel the same way. Now all I feel is animosity towards the situation. That's going to change because I'm really happy for you and I'm going to keep myself busy.

My grandparents are here! So that means more things to do and less missing you. I love you. I love you. I love you. :*

Despite being boyfriendless (semi), laptopless and jobless this Christmas season, self satisfaction has attacked me like they were fated to do so and this has given me inspiration (it's only a few hours old so give it some time to flourish). I'm going to be fine, you're going to be fine. I wish I could see you. I love you. Take care.

I'm still here when you come back anyway.

I hope you're happy,
Tata

P.S. I get over dramatic when I'm trying not to miss you.

FT

I'm still money less. My easy access account is hungry for money! I should know by the 15th if I can get half of my target money at least. :)) I'll try and improve my chances on the weekend. I'll work on it really hard. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Anyway in work news, I've submitted my crappy two paged resume. I really think I should have put a little bit more effort into it, but I'm putting it off till the weekend. What's bugging me though is the fact that the "Job Application" note on my phone has been there for ages and I've only been actively searching for one this week. (And then failing to press the apply button out of my feelings of inadequacy)

On a side note: I still haven't gone to get my phone fixed. :| This has to stop. Days of excessive procrastination will forever ruin my life and my phone.

Love, I think my life may not go anywhere. It's even possible that I'm going to be the next spokesperson for failure. Would you still love me, even after that?

Ok, i should get ready soon, because I'm going to Karyn's house at around 5 or 6. Boo. I miss you love. Catch you next year. ;)

FT

Hello December 3! It's 12 AM here. I was hoping to catch you pero I'm so sleepy, I'll sleep na. I really want to hear your voice. :(

In Karyn's words "I'm whipped."

I love you.

First Trouble

Dear Toh-neeh-oh,

I'm so excited because I get to see you in a couple of hours! :">

I couldn't wait for Monday and Tuesday to be over. Thankfully they are! So tell me, will I still feel this way when you leave me in a couple of months? :| Hopefully not, that would be terrible.

Ugh, today is a sad sad day. You were annoyed with me because I wasn't able to tell you about the BBQ. I didn't mean to! ARGH! Sad sad day indeed. >:*< I hope you still like me.

I went to Reena's today to get some work done, but we ended up procrastinating. Haha, yesterday I was busy playing Disgaea. Gosh I procrastinate way too much!

Oh well, I feel so tempted to sleep so that time would go by faster, but I have some things to do. Haha, keep me awake with your texts ok!

Yours,
Tata

P.S. I like you (and I really really miss you)!

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder." - Proverb