Failure To

Keep.

Can I keep you? For how long, I don't know. For how much, I cannot say. All I know is I want to be with you, so I can find out how long and how much I'll want you for.

Our google calendar is a mess, we don't have entries after September. :( I wonder how long this blog will last? We're like choosing our technology flavour of the month. Haha, wanna make a tumblr? I love you.

We look so tired. Boo!

Your,

Tata

Daily Blogging Failure

Love, I've missed the last few days of blogging! Boooo. Anyway, I'm glad we got to chat today ang play that game in OMGPOP. I miss you love, let's go out when I get back. Let's go walking up a mountain or something. :)

Love you, see you soon. :*

Day 16

Today, we celebrated our lola's 80th birthday! Yay! We went to mass in the morning, which, to my surprise, was only attended by our family. I found out that it was a special mass, because the daily masses were usually held at 5am (WTF?!). I did the first reading and responsorial psalm, so I got to sit in the very front row. Woo. I've always wanted to sit there ever since I was a kid. :p

We ate lots of food afterwards and visited an aviary. It was such a fun day with our relatives. :)

I hope you're having fun with your grandparents as well.

Love you!

Day 15

Today, I had lunch with two of my elementary friends. You can see the photo on Facebook! I really wish you could meet them and get to know them. And hopefully I could meet some of your old friends too. We could learn a lot about each other from them. It would help with our relationship. :)

Am I being too serious love? What do you think? :p

FT

Why hello there stranger,

How are you? Are you feeling much better adjusted in the land of suman and pancit? :{ Growing a mustache aye? Joke, I don't really know. Haven't seen you in ages and I've been really slacking off in my facebook stalking duties. Rawr.

I've missed you a lot. My laptop nightmare has driven me to an absolute wave of insanity. I cried talking to a call center agent who claims they're in Australia when obviously they are not. :| Frustration overload. As each grueling moments passes, I honestly wished you were here to save me.

On the other hand, your absence sort of let me see myself better. I'm stuck in a rut and I know it. When you were here, I used you as an excuse to put things off, but now that you're not here anymore, I've realized that those days are over. I still have time and I suppose I'm going to use that time to actually get my act together. I miss you, I really do, I don't want to, but I do. :( I'm not sure if it's a bad thing or not, but not talking to you somehow lessens the miserable feeling of missing you. It's so weird. Maybe not talking makes me forget to miss you, even for a while.

I wanted to break it off with you because I knew that missing you would just be terrible, and then when you left, I made it even worse by clinging on to you in a way I wasn't supposed to. I'm not going to do that anymore love. I don't want you to worry about me anymore. Just have fun there, don't get more credit for me. You'll be there for only a couple more weeks, it's best you spend it on the things that will make you happy there. I've topped up more this week than I can count and it's ridiculous. I thought minutes spent talking to you would actually help me feel better, but I was wrong. It only works if we both feel the same way. Now all I feel is animosity towards the situation. That's going to change because I'm really happy for you and I'm going to keep myself busy.

My grandparents are here! So that means more things to do and less missing you. I love you. I love you. I love you. :*

Despite being boyfriendless (semi), laptopless and jobless this Christmas season, self satisfaction has attacked me like they were fated to do so and this has given me inspiration (it's only a few hours old so give it some time to flourish). I'm going to be fine, you're going to be fine. I wish I could see you. I love you. Take care.

I'm still here when you come back anyway.

I hope you're happy,
Tata

P.S. I get over dramatic when I'm trying not to miss you.

Day 14

Today, we visited my grandmother's brother, who is 91 years old. He's weak, and all he does is sit all day. He can't see and hear pretty well too. We had to write some of what we were saying on a whiteboard so that he could understand us. It was pretty sad really, and I think I almost cried. He still had a sense of humor left though, because he told us that one day, we would all be like him. Haha and huhu.

We went shopping for food again. We bought lots of spanish bread! I'm soooo fat.

I miss you. :*

Day 13

I hung out with my cousins today love. I also found out that all my weekends are booked already and that it's going to be 2 weeks tomorrow. 4 weeks left love! We're getting closer and closer to seeing each other again! I miss you. I need to get more credit so I can text you, my dear Gitanna. I hope you can go online soon. :)

P.S. Eat well. You look thin. :p